This part caught me off guard more than I expected. What is the main function of steroids?
Not the big things, I was prepared for those. Chemo, surgery, radiation all came with explanations and warnings. What I didn’t anticipate was how much of recovery would involve managing side effects from the things meant to help.
I’ve been on steroids for several weeks because of severe neuropathy in my hands. The pain was debilitating. The medication helped, and I’m grateful for that. It also changed my body quickly.
The weight gain wasn’t gradual. It felt sudden and unfamiliar. My body didn’t feel like it belonged to me in the same way, even though I knew exactly why it was happening. If this feels like a familiar experience, I wrote this for you.
It’s a strange position to be in, relieved that something is working, while also struggling with what it costs. There’s gratitude and frustration sitting in the same place, and neither cancels the other out.
This phase of recovery has required a different kind of patience. Not the patience of waiting for results or scans, but the patience of living in a body that’s recalibrating after months of controlled trauma.
There’s pressure, often unspoken, to look “better” once treatment slows down. To return to normal. To move on. But bodies don’t operate on social timelines, and healing doesn’t always look like progress from the outside.
I’m learning to treat this as part of the process, not a personal failure. The medication did what it was supposed to do. Now my body needs time to settle.
I don’t have a plan to rush this part. I’m paying attention, staying engaged with my doctors, and trying to extend myself the same patience I would offer someone else in this position.
This is still recovery. Even when it doesn’t look like it.
Recovery doesn’t always look like progress. Sometimes it looks like side effects, setbacks and learning your body all over again. That doesn’t mean something is wrong. It just means you are still in it.
I wrote something for this season. A book to come back to when life feels heavy.
You might also want to read:
- Life After Cancer: Recovery Is Not the Finish Line
- How Faith Helps Overcome the Fear of Cancer Recurrence
